long time no post

I know I know, You don't even have to say it. My last post was like a month and a half ago and I have been busy. Not too much has happened. Well I got another fill, making it my second one to date. I still don't know if I am feeling everything that I "should" be. Am I eating less? Yeah... Am I hungry? No... So technically I guess I am feeling what I am supposed to but everyone else talks about this feeling of restriction and Productive Burping and stuff like that and I just haven't experienced it so I guess I am lucky. The last time I weighed myself was a week ago and I am down a total of 70 pounds. I am 4 clothing sizes down from where I started and I feel good. I can see the difference in my face like in pictures and stuff but I can't really tell when I look in the mirror because I am so used to seeing myself another way. I leave for vacation at the end of this week but I will try to update on a more regular bases.

My name is Jen, and I am a slacker.

So I know I haven't posted in like 3 weeks and I would love to tell you that I have a perfectly good reason, but, the fact remains that I don't! Life just seems to get busier on a daily basis and even know I need to journal for myself it doesn't make finding the time any easier. Anywho, on with the show! I go to see my surgeon on Wednesday for my first fill. I can tell I need it because I can eat alot more then I should be allowed to. I have still been successful at walking away and making good choices but willpower will only get one so far, so, I am ready. I am a little nervous just because it's something new but I know I will be fine, my mommy will be there! As far as progress goes, I am down a grand total of 55 lbs! It is so crazy to even be able to say that. I feel amazing already though even though I take into consideration that I still have quite a ways to go. I am down 2 to 3 clothing sizes depending on the brand and I love that! This is the first time in many years where I actually feel like I am in control of my future, it is a great things! I included some recent pics from girls night out and Easter Sunday.

22 days and counting...

I weighed myself this morning and I am down 46 lbs since December!! EVen when I did weight watchers before we got married I was never able to lose more then 35. I am amazed at how great I feel. I started back at the gym yesterday and ended up getting tired quicker then I remember before but I did what I could and I feel good about it. I feel like I am off to a great start and things are only going to get better!

sweet 16 (days post surgery)

and I am feeling good. I haven't been having the urge to take any pain medication and the only setback is that I feel like at the end of the day I am really tired. I have been working since last week and that is going well also. I has my 2 week followup with my surgeon and he said everything was right on track. It is just so weird though, I really can already feel a difference. I have yet to experience one of the well talked about "PB's" (productive burps) but I am perfectly ok with that. I am in the pureed stage so that means everything gets chopped up really well and I am doing fine with it. Next week I am going to start my walking routine again because I finally feel ready for it. I am really glad that I made the decision to better my life. I feel better, I will eventually look better and I will be able to do more with Jake which is the best perk of all! I have added some of the new portraits for your viewing pleasure...

I am official!

Sorry for the lack of posting but I have been recovering. I had my surgery 1 week ago on Monday the 16th. I got really really sick the weekend before and up until I went to the OR we were unsure if the Dr. was going to operate. But he did and I am so happy! I am still sore and I can't lift anything over 10 lbs for the next 6 weeks but all in all I feel good. Today is my first day back to work and I weighed myself. I am down a whopping total of 40 lbs since I started my process in December. Wow. When I got back to work today everyone was telling me that they could tell and it felt really good. I will keep updating with my progress but for now I have a week of work to catch up on!

1 week down, 1 to go!

So i figured out how to make the liquid diet bearable and at this point I would actually be scared to try and eat something. My body feels great, almost like it is cleansed. I weighed myself this morning when I got to work and It says I am down a whopping total of 32 lbs. That is freakin insane! I am so excited and currently wearing clothes I haven't been able to wear in a LONG while. I feel good too! Still haven't gotten the family portraits back but I will post when I do. I cant believe the surgery will be a week from today. WOW!

Day 3 of liquid diet almost done!

Really.. IT hasn't been all that bad. I am doing the optifast liquid diet and I am required to drink 5 shakes a day. My biggest complaint is that I can't finish the 5th because I am too full. I have been eating hot soup from Arigatos in the evening and for lunch to make me feel like I am actually eating something. I tried to do the tomato soup that optifast offered but I ended up gagging on the first sip and I refuse to gag thru this! I am alternating between the vanilla and chocolate shakes. I consulted with the dietitian and I am allowed to add some baking extract to the shakes (which has helped immensely!). So I have been using pure mint extract and making out ok. I am actually feeling ok (I have my period so I've had the normal cramping) but as far as the diet goes I am making it!