Vacation will get you every time!

Yeah I gained 3 lbs. I am trying not to beat myself up over this. I understand that we were in a remote spot, the house was stockpiled with every kind of food (especially food that I dont allow in my own house) so I ate. I am not trying to rationalize saying that what I was was okay because I know it;s not. I am however saying that I think it could be expected of anyone going through a transition in their lives.

On a much lighter note, I really enjoyed myself, catching up with old friends, walking the shops, even did some outdoor activities which is normally pretty uncharacteristic of me. Mom is doing amazing as well. Things are going good and I can't wait to see what the future has in store for me!

long time no post

I know I know, You don't even have to say it. My last post was like a month and a half ago and I have been busy. Not too much has happened. Well I got another fill, making it my second one to date. I still don't know if I am feeling everything that I "should" be. Am I eating less? Yeah... Am I hungry? No... So technically I guess I am feeling what I am supposed to but everyone else talks about this feeling of restriction and Productive Burping and stuff like that and I just haven't experienced it so I guess I am lucky. The last time I weighed myself was a week ago and I am down a total of 70 pounds. I am 4 clothing sizes down from where I started and I feel good. I can see the difference in my face like in pictures and stuff but I can't really tell when I look in the mirror because I am so used to seeing myself another way. I leave for vacation at the end of this week but I will try to update on a more regular bases.

My name is Jen, and I am a slacker.

So I know I haven't posted in like 3 weeks and I would love to tell you that I have a perfectly good reason, but, the fact remains that I don't! Life just seems to get busier on a daily basis and even know I need to journal for myself it doesn't make finding the time any easier. Anywho, on with the show! I go to see my surgeon on Wednesday for my first fill. I can tell I need it because I can eat alot more then I should be allowed to. I have still been successful at walking away and making good choices but willpower will only get one so far, so, I am ready. I am a little nervous just because it's something new but I know I will be fine, my mommy will be there! As far as progress goes, I am down a grand total of 55 lbs! It is so crazy to even be able to say that. I feel amazing already though even though I take into consideration that I still have quite a ways to go. I am down 2 to 3 clothing sizes depending on the brand and I love that! This is the first time in many years where I actually feel like I am in control of my future, it is a great things! I included some recent pics from girls night out and Easter Sunday.

22 days and counting...

I weighed myself this morning and I am down 46 lbs since December!! EVen when I did weight watchers before we got married I was never able to lose more then 35. I am amazed at how great I feel. I started back at the gym yesterday and ended up getting tired quicker then I remember before but I did what I could and I feel good about it. I feel like I am off to a great start and things are only going to get better!

sweet 16 (days post surgery)

and I am feeling good. I haven't been having the urge to take any pain medication and the only setback is that I feel like at the end of the day I am really tired. I have been working since last week and that is going well also. I has my 2 week followup with my surgeon and he said everything was right on track. It is just so weird though, I really can already feel a difference. I have yet to experience one of the well talked about "PB's" (productive burps) but I am perfectly ok with that. I am in the pureed stage so that means everything gets chopped up really well and I am doing fine with it. Next week I am going to start my walking routine again because I finally feel ready for it. I am really glad that I made the decision to better my life. I feel better, I will eventually look better and I will be able to do more with Jake which is the best perk of all! I have added some of the new portraits for your viewing pleasure...

I am official!

Sorry for the lack of posting but I have been recovering. I had my surgery 1 week ago on Monday the 16th. I got really really sick the weekend before and up until I went to the OR we were unsure if the Dr. was going to operate. But he did and I am so happy! I am still sore and I can't lift anything over 10 lbs for the next 6 weeks but all in all I feel good. Today is my first day back to work and I weighed myself. I am down a whopping total of 40 lbs since I started my process in December. Wow. When I got back to work today everyone was telling me that they could tell and it felt really good. I will keep updating with my progress but for now I have a week of work to catch up on!

1 week down, 1 to go!

So i figured out how to make the liquid diet bearable and at this point I would actually be scared to try and eat something. My body feels great, almost like it is cleansed. I weighed myself this morning when I got to work and It says I am down a whopping total of 32 lbs. That is freakin insane! I am so excited and currently wearing clothes I haven't been able to wear in a LONG while. I feel good too! Still haven't gotten the family portraits back but I will post when I do. I cant believe the surgery will be a week from today. WOW!