1 week down, 1 to go!

So i figured out how to make the liquid diet bearable and at this point I would actually be scared to try and eat something. My body feels great, almost like it is cleansed. I weighed myself this morning when I got to work and It says I am down a whopping total of 32 lbs. That is freakin insane! I am so excited and currently wearing clothes I haven't been able to wear in a LONG while. I feel good too! Still haven't gotten the family portraits back but I will post when I do. I cant believe the surgery will be a week from today. WOW!

Day 3 of liquid diet almost done!

Really.. IT hasn't been all that bad. I am doing the optifast liquid diet and I am required to drink 5 shakes a day. My biggest complaint is that I can't finish the 5th because I am too full. I have been eating hot soup from Arigatos in the evening and for lunch to make me feel like I am actually eating something. I tried to do the tomato soup that optifast offered but I ended up gagging on the first sip and I refuse to gag thru this! I am alternating between the vanilla and chocolate shakes. I consulted with the dietitian and I am allowed to add some baking extract to the shakes (which has helped immensely!). So I have been using pure mint extract and making out ok. I am actually feeling ok (I have my period so I've had the normal cramping) but as far as the diet goes I am making it!

The last supper...

is lasagna! This is what I am having for dinner tonight as my last meal before I begin my 2 week liquid diet. I am feeling ok about the upcoming days. I think there will be rough times but all in all I know that I have to do it in order to fully prepare myself for surgery. I am doing 5 optifast shakes per day as that is what my surgeon prefers and if I have a craving I am allowed broth, sugar free fat free jello and sugar free popcicles. Wish me luck! By the way our photo session went great. As soon as I get them I will post one on here.

It's a date!

I had my meeting with the surgeon yesterday afternoon. He was quite pleased with my commitment to changing my ugly habits and approved me for surgery.. So 2 weeks from monday it's finally my day! That s March 16th, 2009. No green beer for me on St Paddy's day! (I don't drink anyways!) I went to the hospital after my appointment and picked up my optifast and last night I got a personal blender from Wal-mart. I feel great. I am so excited and looking forward to the amazing future that is in store for me. This Saturday we are going to take our 2009 family pictures. I can't wait to see the difference in 2010!!!

ready to go!

So it is Monday and I had an amazing weekend up in Orlando. Words can not accurately describe the concert and do it justice. Sunday I went to a dear friend's baby shower and today it is back to the grind. I have my final Dr's appt 2 days from now. I can't believe this process is at it's peak and yet it all begins again after surgery. I have decided to try and schedule my surgery date 2 weeks from the appointment because I want to get it over with and the sooner the better. I had a bit of a nervous breakdown last night in talking about things with my family. I totally forgot that when I got my wisdom teeth pulled the year before I got married that I went under anesthesia. Hoot hoot! now I am not quite as scared as before. Still nervous but riding the fine line of fear. If my surgery gets scheduled for the 2 weeks out I will officially be on a liquid diet as of Thursday. Yong offered to go on the diet with me to be supportive but I don't know if 2 miserable people in the house will be safe! I will update after the Doctor! Oh yeah and today is my 7 year wedding anniversary.. Does anyone see diamond earrings in my future?

Hi My Name is Jen, and I am fat...

Check out the title, that was what I was expecting from the recommended support group meeting that I was encouraged to attend. I went and Yong came along with me. Was I ever wrong! I was so pleasantly surprised at the fact that it was time well spent, so much in fact that we stayed behind talking about 30 minutes after the meeting. The group was led by the same psychiatrist who did my psych eval. He is so calm and really has the tendencies to control the emotional environment. I really enjoyed talking to the other girls that were there, I got alot of great insight and now have a better grasp of what to expect. This afternoon I go to meet with my PCP for his blessing and then next week is the big appt with my surgeon! It is getting close!!!!

Weekend suckfest

I went to the dietitian appointment on Friday and her scale only put me at 15.2 lbs lost. That sucks, my scale and hers has been on point this entire process so that means that I am fluctuating again. And that bites, as far as the surgery goes I am not required to lose any weight but I want my file to look really good so that when the packet gets submitted to my insurance company for approval it is smooth sailing. After the appointment hubby and I took advantage of Jake being at school and went to the gym, we decided to try the express circuit and see how we made out. Holy hell did it work! We were both sweaty messes when we left and it was definitely challenging. The downside to the workout was that my muscles ached me all weekend and I had to forgo my Sunday workout because my legs were still sore. It's cool though, instead I went to the park with Jakers and my godson and we played Frisbee and baseball.

Saturday night was Valentine's and we spent a romantic evening watching grown and sweaty men bashing each other... Got to love hockey. The lightning lost 5-1 and that sucked but it was a fun night out. This week I have my final meeting with my primary care physician to get his approval and then we are off to Orlando. I am sooooo freakin excited because #1 it is our 7th anniversary and #2 The hubby is taking me to Universal Studios Mardi gras to see Ne-Yo in concert. I can not wait, he is my most favorite singer! I will update after my PCP appointment! Cheers to the start of another great week!